Anticipate...Dream...Become....

At night I dream of you,
the possibility of what will come.
The future....
being told not to long for it,
but human nature takes over.
What I am left with-
is anticipation.
I want to gather all of my possessions,
throw them in the back of my car,
and drive-

My future is on the other side.....I can't wait to embrace it...

to the future that awaits me.
The one I have created in my mind-
like a web,
spun together with delicate intricacies-
hard work, dedication and effort leading to success.
Helping others.
A servant.
My heart is antsy.
My soul is discontent.
My body growing weary with complacency.
My mind scattered.....analyzing and synthesizing.
The decision has already been made,
and once the plan is finalized,
I can move forward without looking back.
I can look fear and nervousness in the face-
and laugh.
I can go blindly into my walk with faith-
and turn discontent to commitment,
bring my heart to a steady pace-
and take in all of the positive energy that will be afforded to me.
I will need this energy to continue with my journey.
But tonight I will dream again of you-
until it is time for us to meet
and become one.