WALLS

Sometimes it's difficult to let people in


The last couple of weeks have been extremely trying. Trying on my patience, faith, strength, health, and sanity. Within the company of a dear friend, I learned and realized that I put up Walls with people and do not allow them to truly get to know me. I do have people that I trust, family and friends but it has always been difficult and sort of unnatural for me to tell everyone everything. That's almost the very essence of this blog. "pieces of me"....that's is all I have ever truly been able to offer the "special" ones in my life. Now that I am going through some transitions (professionally, medically, physically, spiritually) and otherwise, I have come to realize that I cannot do this alone. I cannot move, transition into a new job, regain and replenish my faith, learn how to love again, or finish my education without those special people. One in particular :-) gave me a very stern message about the implications of my actions. He is amazing, and I am lucky to have him. I now realize that at least some of the "Walls" have to come tumbling down, quickly! I know that just like many other changes in my life, this will be difficult and will take time, but I also know that I can do it. And it will start with tearing down the wall between me and him :-)